Jacob’s Blessing*
Is that IT?
That I want someone to tell me
that this gets easier?
This wrestling with the Word
This wrestling with God
Wrestling with what I believe
or
do not
believe
on any given day.
Each and every day
faced with
Choosing…
again
and
again
Choosing…
Choosing Faith
Choosing Hope
Choosing to be vulnerable
Choosing uncertainty
unknowing
bewildering
and baffling
unclarity
Choosing
to follow
Jesus.
JESUS!
Will it always be this
wrestling match
through the long night?
Sometimes surrendering
Sometimes resisting
Always
clinging
with grim determination
Always
walking away
wounded
Always
aching
and broken
and sometimes…
……and sometimes….
some
times
walking away
Blessed.
*”Jacob’s Blessing”
A “Fabrication” by C. Steinbrecher
Genesis 32:22 – 29
Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two maids, and his eleven children and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. He took them and sent them across the stream, and likewise everything that he had.
Jacob was left alone; and a man wrestled with him until daybreak. When the man saw that he did not prevail against Jacob, he struck him on the hip socket; and Jacob’s hip was put out of joint as he wrestled with him.
Then he said, “Let me go, for the day is breaking.” But Jacob said, “I will not let you go, unless you bless me.” So he said to him, “What is your name?” And he said, “Jacob.”
Then the man said, “You shall no longer be called Jacob, but Israel, for you have striven with God and with humans, and have prevailed.” Then Jacob asked him, “Please tell me your name.” But he said, “Why is it that you ask my name?”
And there he blessed him.